A benefit of walking—among
its many—is the opportunity to slow down. Unlike using a car,
bicycle, or bus, a walker can only move as quickly as her legs will
take her. I have a naturally quick pace, but on these walks, I am
thoughtful about taking my time. This particular walking habit is
less about exercise and more about moving old energy in my head and
heart around and out of my body. Though I know I am a recipient of
the health benefits too. My legs feel stronger. My posture is
straighter.
When one walks city blocks, one
begins to notice how much trash lands on the sidewalks, private
yards, and in the curbing. It's like buying a new car. Before you
bought it, you never saw one of that make and model. Then after you
buy it, you see them everywhere. I hadn't noticed the trash so much
until it was literally at my feet. And the cigarette butts! Good
lord, they're everywhere. Now, I see trash everywhere. On my commutes
to and from work, I mentally collect trash and wish that my
superpower could be to mentally clean up the mess from the driver's
seat. I digress.
The slowing and noticing also
helped me monitor and gauge the subtle shifts that were taking place
in my head and my heart. I more readily recognize anxiety as it
creeps in. I lean in and breathe more deeply. I welcome tears when
they spring up. Again, I breathe, welcome the tears, and keep
walking. I am self-conscious when I smile and laugh at something I
hear in the current podcast that accompanies the walks. I wonder what I
must look like having a party-for-one right there in the middle of
the business of Clayton or a quiet residential street. I am taken
aback in these moments by how foreign the laughter feels bubbling up
from within. I'm a laugher. In my younger days, I would write
'laughing' as a hobby on getting-to-know-you forms at school, camp,
etc. I register sadness when I discover just how little laughter has
erupted from me in recent years. I miss it, and am determined to
correct it.
The
walking opened up the space for me to discover the laughter deficit.
I am paying attention. What else am I going to discover as I hit the
pavement?
One of the treasures I found because I was paying attention. |
Love this! I'm so glad you are sharing this. I want to get out and move more and this is a good challenge. We live on a country road and I just need to get out and do it.
ReplyDeleteOn this beautiful sunny Sunday afternoon I am reading all your posts and I am so very glad that the enemy of our souls did not steal your laughter. Laughter is medicine from heaven. Oh how I love to laugh!
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