Two
city blocks past the fountains, the street makes a steep incline.
There's a random waste bin on this stretch, so I often I pick up a
lot a trash knowing it will be easy to dispose of. There's also a
shaded area on the right of my path where people who smoke have their
break. Earbuds in, I pass (and smile at) a lot of office workers on
this part of the path.
On
this particular day, I was making my way up the hill when I noticed
this:
A
driver was maneuvering his semi on the city street into a loading
dock of a local hotel. Cars lined the street on both sides. Forward
and backward, forward and backward, he inched his way into the narrow
lane.
I
stopped walking.
I took
my earbuds out.
I
watched. And watched. And watched some more. It was a spectacle. I
held my breath.
I
wasn't the only who stopped to watch.
The
driver successfully backed into his spot. I sighed for him.
I
noticed an older Asian man was one of fellow spectators. We struck up
a conversation as I'd begun to walk away. He explained that he'd
served in the military (Army, if I recall) and had driven trucks like
that.
“How
does he do it?” I asked still breathless by the way the driver had
negotiated the tight space and multiple parked cars.
“Just
do the opposite,” the gentleman answered. "Everyone thinks
it's hard, but it's not if you just do the opposite of what you think
you should do. If you need to go to the right, you turn the wheel to
the left."
We
exchanged pleasantries and then went our separate ways.
His
answer rang in my ear. Just do the opposite. On my walking path, I'd
found the next lesson on this journey I am on.
For
months, the impulse had been to rush head long into the future. To
KNOW what came next. To FORCE something to happen. Those had been
frenzied times because I didn't actually want to do that, so without
knowing fully what I was doing, I'd stopped. I'd felt my way through
and decided to do the opposite. To not rush. To not have all the
answers. To rest. To feel the discomfort. To lean into it. To walk
instead of run.
As I
walked away from the expert parking I had witnessed, I sensed I was
walking into something really profound. And now, I didn't need to
know what. I simply trusted that walking would help me figure it out.
I'm learning so much from your series and your walks! Much wisdom here.
ReplyDeleteReally nicely rendered Julie, from a writing perspective. And profound in terms of awareness. I'm inspired by your journey.
ReplyDeleteI love this - inspiration in the everyday. Thanks for sharing. Maybe I need to do the opposite as well.
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